Our prayers for you and your family during this time. As having lost my mother as well, the range of emotions is a lot to handle and to even think about. Thankful for your tribe of family and friends who are there to support you during this time. Our Caregiving Family is here for you as well. Sending hugs and prayers.
Thank you for asking this question. As caregivers, we have a roller coaster of emotions to contend with as we care for our loved ones, and as we experience the death of our loved ones.
I recently lost my mother, Monday, July 11th. In less than a week from her death, I have experienced a variety of emotions as I enter the beginning stage of grief including a bit of shock and denial, sadness, and relief. It's an odd combination of emotions, but I am relieved for my mother that she is no longer miserable (her words), and I am relieved to begin to experience a life of my own without the restrictions of a scheduled life.
I will write more about my mother's end of life and the corresponding emotions in future blogs. I find writing to be my way of processing my feelings and helps me to feel closer in spirit to my mother.
Finally, I feel blessed and thankful for the support of family and so many friends. I know that I am not alone.